So there are a lot of things going through my head. My sister and I are
two different people, and she moved out of here, and it seems that since
she's gone I have developed into a more girly person. I actually put on
makeup, and want to buy cute clothes. I think while she was here I felt
it wasn't worth trying to put on makeup or anything because there was
already one of us doing it. I know it's probably wrong to think so, but I
do. Next I had a hard time understanding my Chemistry this week and
went to see the teacher who was amazingly patient and helpful. I joined a
German course in my college. Hopefully that will help me with my
writing and then I can translate into German without feeling too
insecure about spelling it wrong. I have to admit that sometimes when I
sit at college alone and find that no one is there with me that I feel
lonely. It's not something that I can help. I had a "friend" who said he
would meet me quite a few times, but he stood me up each and every
time. Now he won't respond to my texts. Hames says it's because I'm mean
to him. I guess that's true. However, I can't help it, that guy just
brings out my mean personality. I've been drawing again to try and keep
my mind off of things. Sadly it hasn't helped much. I still feel like
I'm alone and I don't see the point in doing anything because it seems
that nothing matters. Gosh I sound emo. It may be my period talking
HAHA! I've been talking to Hames' mother. She's really nice.
Frighteningly so actually since I'm used to my mom who doesn't really
associate with me, and so I can't help but be envious of him. I should
probably stop here before I get more depressed. Below are the drawings I have done so far.
Above is Alice the Angel
Above is Jeana the Bookworm
Above is Lys (pronounced Lies) the Playful
Above is Lys (pronounced Lies) the Lonely
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